Sweetdreams

We had a little misunderstanding but we already talked about it.

It’s so cute that we’re able to understand each other.I feel incredibly lucky to have someone who is willing to put me in this kind of situation.Thank you for making time to talk to me again.

 

 

Yeah.I know my place.Soon,there will be no more space there!

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“I just go get some rest.We’ll talk later.I love youuuu”

You make my heart pound!HAHA

The Cranky Old Man

LOOK CLOSER (The Cranky Old Man)

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What do you see, nurses, what do you see?

What are you thinking, when you look at me,

A crabbit old woman, not very wise,

Uncertain of habit, with far-away eyes,

Who, quite unresisting, lets you do as you will,

With bathing and feeding the long day to fill.

I’ll tell you who I am as I sit here so still,

As I move at your bidding, as I eat at your will.

I’m a small child of 10 with a father and mother,

Brothers and sisters, who loved one another.

A bride now at 20 my heart gives a leap,

Remembering the vows that I promised to keep.

At 25 now I have young of my own,

Who need me to build a secure happy home,

At 50 once more babies play around my knee,

Again we know children, my loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me, my husband is dead,

I look at the future, I shudder with dread,

For my young are all busy with young of their own,

And I think of the years and the love that I’ve known.

The body it crumbles, grace and vigour depart,

There is now a stone where I once had a heart,

But inside this old carcass, a young girl still dwells,

And now and again my battered heart swells.

I remember the joys, I remember the pain,

And I’m loving and living life over again,

I think of the years all too few gone too fast.

And accept the stark fact that nothing can last.

So open your eyes, nurse, open and see,

Not a crabbit old woman, look closer see ME.

❤️ BEGINNING ❤️

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Happiness to me is not hating anyone for their past mistakes or for whatever they may or might have put you through. It’s hard to forgive but when do you you experience this sense of peace that’s beyond anything you can think of…I’m happy with my life and Im glad people have found what they consider to be their happiness too. funny how life works …. but there’s reason as to why things happen. Believe in GOD or not its all part of faith… Im exactly where i need to be with who i need to be with..

Putting so much thought with the way things have been lately.. And I can genuinely say that im okay. A couple irritations here and there but its not stopping me the way these little things used to stop me before. Things are the way they are for a reason, whatever reason it may be. the people that have come in and out in my life have shaped me to be the person that I am, and they’re all a part of my story yknw. I’m glad for the people who have hurt me because they’ve only made me a stronger and better person.. I’m content with the way things are with my life, and I’m happy with the people in my life. I’m not gonna let little things get to me anymore. This past break, ive found this new admiration for reading,watching korean films and singing in korean. reading is  awesome, i forgot how awesome it was. and idk i just like to sing a lot, if only i was good though haha. idk, it’d be awesome to like be a kpop singer and perform for others and have people look up to you and just inspire others. gah. it’d be like a dream come true. .. 🙂

Finally I can say that im really say that im happy with my life. Everything is working out for me and my ANXIETY has calmed down alot since november?? hihihi. Everyday I’m learning how to deal with it and control how I feel! It took me a long while to get to where I am today but it was all worth it!! I have great friends and besties who are always by my side giving me the confidence and positive feedback that will help me grow as a person.LAST YEAR\LAST MONTH I can say I went through alot all at once, but I got through it and I’m very proud of myself!! As well me and my family have gotten soo much closer and we are open with each other..

I came to a sort of realization yesterday. I often see people get angry and frustrated about things they can’t control, and they get no benefit from doing so. Why would you cause yourself any sort of inner turmoil when you get absolutely no satisfaction? It makes no sense, logically. If people were to count their blessings and focus on the good things in life…we would all be so much happier, so much more peaceful, as a race.

I am so much happier now with me life and how everything is working out for me. I have came a very long way to get where i am today, but im happy for those experiences and memories because without them i dont think id be here today…. Just Happy!!! 😊😜😃

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Short Story

There was a little boy visiting his grandparents on their farm.He was given a slingshot to play with out in the woods.

He practiced in the woods,but he could never hit the target.Getting a little discouraged,he headed back for dinner.

As he was walking back he saw Grandma’s pet duck.

Just out of impulse,he let the slingshot fly,hit the duck square in the head,and killed it.He was shocked and grieved.

In a panic,he hid the dead duck in the wood pile,only to see  his sister watching!

Sally had seen it all,but she said nothing.

After lunch the next day Grandma said “Sally,let’s wash the dishes.”

But Sally said,“Grandma,Johnny told me he wanted to help in the kitchen”.

Then she whispered to him “Remember the duck?”

So Johnny did the dishes.

Later that day,Grandpa asked if the children wanted to go fishing and Grandma said “I’m sorry but I need Sally to help me to make supper.”

Sally just smiled and said “Well,that’s all right because Johnny told me he wanted to help.”

So she whispered again“Remember the duck?”

Sally went  fishing and Johnny stayed to help.

After several days of Johnny doing both his chores and Sally’s..

He finally couldn’t stand it any longer.

He came to Grandma and confessed that he had killed the duck.

Grandma knelt down,gave him a hug,and said, “Sweetheart,I know.You see, I was standing at the window and I saw the whole thing,but because I love you,I forgave you.I was just wondering how long you would let Sally make a slave of you.”

 

 

 

 

THE LESSON:

Whatever is in your past,whatever you have done…and the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying,cheating,debt,fear,bad habits,hatred,anger,bitterness,etc) whatever it is….You need to know that GOD was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.He has seen your whole life;He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven.He’s just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.the great thing about GOD is that when you ask for forgiveness.He not only forgives you,but he forgets..It is by GOD’S grace and mercy that we are saved.

-I’m so blessed daily

Yung time na yon

Sabi ng nanay ko ang buhay daw ay parang gulong na umiikot.Minsan nasa ilalim at minsan nasa ibabaw.Nung bata pa ako hindi ko alam kung anong ibig sabihin nya,ngayon na lumipas na ang ilang dekada narerealize ko na ang buhay ay hindi puro saya,walang hirap,walang problema ang buhay ay punong puno ng surpresa.Ang buhay ay may kasamang hirap,lungkot at problema.Punong puno ng pagsubok at problema.Hindi mo alam kung ano ang darating sayo para maging matibay ka.Minsan may time na hindi pa tapos ang problema mo ay may dumadating agad na kasunod,minsan dumodoble o triple pa.Nasa sayo kung paano mo haharapin ang mga problemang yun.

Hindi kita masisisi kung minsan ay gusto mo ng sumuko dahil ako mismo ang magsasabi sayo na ang buhay ko ay hindi din perpekto katulad mo.Tulad mo,naisipan ko na ding hayaan na lang kung ano ang mangyayari,nawalan ng pag asa,nagtanong ng “bakit” at napagod.Tulad mo,umiyak at nasaktan din ako.Tulad mo,nahirapan akong harapin ang katotohanan,at i-try na takbuhan.Tulad mo,nakalimutan ko din ang ibig sabihin ng buhay.Nakalimutan ko na ang buhay ay hindi puro problema at pagsubok lang.Ang buhay at may saya,may mga bagay na hindi natin napapansin na blessed padin tayo,mga bagay na dapat nating ipagpasalamat.Ang nagiisang sandalan ko lamang ay ang DIYOS,sya ang nagpapalakas sa akin at nagreremind na ang buhay ay dapat hinaharap.Sya ang nagpapaalala sakin na maswerte padin ako kahit na nababaliw na ako kakaisip sa mga solusyon para sa mga problema.Sya ang nagpapaalala na may pamilya at mga kaibigan akong sumusuporta at nagmamahal sa akin.

Kung dumating man ang time na yun para sayo,na pakiramdam mong pinagdamutan ka na ng mundo isipin mo na hindi ka nagiisa.Isipin mo ang mga problemang nalampasan mo.Yun ang magpapatibay sayo

 

GODBLESS EVERYONE!

@25

Turning 25 is pretty good time in most people’s lives.We have started our career,our youth,health and the whole world is in front of us.As i am turning 25 i think i already facing the world.With all the struggles i went through-losing best friends,multiple break ups,rude remarks from the persons i didn’t know and many worse things.I lost myself in the process and went to my last resort,my PARENTS.💜Despite all the mean things i’ve said and done,they were there to understand and comfort me.I thank GOD for that. I have my family and friends who never left me in my ups and downs.I remember when i was a kid i told to my myself at 25 someone will call me mama and honey.But everything changed.Its not what i said.Its not what i planned.Life is too short so lets make it worth and colorful. 

Thinking I’m 25 already?Gosh!How can i accept that fact?😭My 25 years is fvcking awesome!I got hurt,I cried hundred times and made mistakes but I learned!I would never say that I hate that life.From those experiences.I got my own car,my dream car.It took 6 years to buy my dream car but its all worth it!I own 2 small businesses in my homeland.I got the possibility to build a small house in the lot  where my dad gave me when i turned 18.Luckily,I own one of the condo unit in the city.I paid that.It came from my own sweats.I’m living on my own.I make decisions for my future.I make my own money so i use it how i want. People sometimes judge me because i do what i like  and they think I’m a spoiled bratt.NO!

Hindi nyo alam na may charity akong tinutulungan.I help those in needs.May anak akong pinapalaki at pinag aaral. YES! I have a child!I have adopted her 3 years ago.I’m a proud mama of a nigerian girl!I’m waiting her to be with me.Hindi ko sya madala dito because its  a long process. She needs mom and dad. she have me but it won’t be complete without dad. haha. People don’t know how responsible daughter i am.How amazing sister i am.But its okay. I can’t please everybody! My friends who always there for me.They always remind me how blessed i am to have them!

Last week my mom asked me what i want for my birthday except the dslr!haha. I’m the luckiest yknow!Sabi nya sken nasaken na daw ang lahat ano pa ba daw ang ibibigay nila.Yes,tama!May sarili akong pera na alam ko na kaya ko na tlga ang sarili ko at magkaroon ng pamilya.Dapat nga nag ttravel ako dahil alam nilang yun ang gusto ko.Pero hindi ako katulad ng iba na gastos dito gastos dun!Binibili ko lng yung mga bagay na alam kong magpapawala ng stress ko at syempre yung alam ko naman na deserving akong magkaroon non.Tama sila.Nasaken n ang lahat.Ang pagmamahal nila,pagkakaroon ng totoong kaibigan.Mga simpleng bagay na nagpapasaya tlga sken!HAHA. hindi ko lang iniexpect ang gift nila sken ngayong 25 na ko!Kayang kaya ko naman nga yung binigay nila pero talagang iba pa din ang galing sakanila. hehe.Dati kung mga kaibigan ko na kayo alam nyo kung paano ako gumastos.Sabi nga nila sken one day millionaire ako.Kase pag may pera ako gastos lang ako ng gastos. Nagbago ang lahat sa isang pangyayari.Natuto akong humawak ng pera. I learned how to buy what i need not what i want.Nalaman ko ang hirap talagang kumita ng pera!KAKALOKA!Worth it naman lahat kase alam kong may magandang napupuntahan yung pinaghihirapan ko.Super dami ng problemang dumating sa buhay ko.I’ve been in hell tlga.Nagpapasalamat ako s family and friends kong hindi ako iniwan na laging nagreremind sakin na everything will be alright.I went in psycho session for 3 months because of my personal problems.I went through a lot.One thing I’ve learned through all the ups and downs is that if you’re doing things right, then you have a core group of people. Not just a core group like your family or your friends, but a group of people that has a good influence on you, who you respect and admire, and you know that if they’re on your side, you’re doing something right.

To my family thank you guys for not letting me walk alone!Thank you for the love!Thank you for reminding me how amazing i am to all of you.I love you all!

I just wanna say thank you to my boyfriend who is always ready to catch me in many other ways.Thank you love.

To my friends,i love you guys!

TO MY FATHER,OUR CREATOR.THANK YOU SO MUCH!I KNOW YOU HAVE PLANS FOR ME.USE ME TO HELP OTHERS.THANK YOU FOR THE WONDERFUL GIFT YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME.THANK YOU FOR ANOTHER YEAR!I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL.

My 25 years is so amazing!